A friend gave me two glass jars, which had contained lollipops, instructing me to fill one with cotton wool balls, and the other with orange sticks. I had none of the latter, but had stockpiled cotton wool with which to clean my piercings.
As a child, I was troubled by the similarities between cotton wool and candy floss, and worried that I might mistake one for the other. Wet candy floss dissolves into sugar, and cotton wool is most unpleasant to bite. Because my mouth is so small I have had many teeth extracted, and my mouth packed with cotton wool to stem the bleeding, which was truly nauseating.
The cotton wool balls I collected looked more like marshmallows than candy floss, another confection I have had traumatic experiences with. I volunteered for a game in which players had to fit as many marshmallows into their mouths as possible, without chewing or swallowing. As mentioned, I have a very small mouth, and as I have yet to mention, I get very competitive. I realised too late that my competitors all had huge mouths, and the chosen brand of marshmallows tasted disgusting, yet I refused to back down. The marshmallows were melting, the resultant liquid running down my throat, and I wanted to throw up. I was offered the bucket into which the other losers had spat their melted marshmallows. After retching several times, I involuntarily spat my own out. I came in third place.
Sugar is a staple of my diet, which we all know leads to tooth decay. I recently received my first filling, and two days later, developed my first tooth infection, which took 3 courses of antibiotics to cure. I refuse to believe this was a coincidence. It is similarly counter-productive to offer sweets, as a bribe before or a reward after, visiting the dentist, yet it is an archetype of children’s fiction.
So, for these reasons, I included a jar of cotton wool and a jar of white marshmallows, in my toy dental hospital. I added other props one might find at the dentist, including a genuine oral speculum, and toy mirror, forceps, pliers, and oxygen tank.
Inspired by Marina Abramović, I wanted to lay out the props I had collected, and put myself at the mercy of my audience. However, I did not have an audience. There was not room for a large audience in my installation. I am not able to give a live performance at the open studio event this time, because it coincides with the exam for my Japanese evening class. Nor am I able to give a live performance during my assessment, because I am not allowed to be present.
Instead, I passed the role of Nurse to my dear friend/lolita twin/fellow art student/favourite manga ka Io. I still find it unheimlich to see her face between my pink wig and nurse costume, after spending so much time playing the character myself. I explained my inspiration and ideas to her, but ultimately allowed her to do whatever she felt like. This kind of performance is frightening and physically draining, so we were only able to shoot once, for 5 minutes.
What do you think we did?